while you were dreaming

rooftops, etc.

I dreamed that I was in a play which I played all of the characters. The ending of the play was a quadruple-suicide in which four of the male characters jumped off a tall building in a specific order and died. I stood at the top of a ladder and gave an unscripted closing speech as I tried to remember which character died first. Then I jumped down 13 stories, which seemed to happen in slow-motion. I got a bloody nose, and ran up to the top to do it again. I got to do it a second time but then I was told that the audience had been impatient so they ended it. I got very upset at not being allowed to perform the third and fourth suicides. Someone tried to finagle it so I could but it got screwed up somehow.

Then I was on a real roof with a few friends and one of them was saying that two of her three maternal grandmothers (?) had committed suicide. This scared me and the others, and we all thought we were going to fall off the roof. We managed not to, with each others’ help.

Then a song by the Kossoy Sisters came on a radio and my mom said to Sara and I, “OK, girls! Let me test your knowledge and see if you can say when this song is from!” Sara said, “Four years ago!” I said, “The fifties.” My mom said, “Right! Can you believe it?” She was trying to see if the age difference between me and Sara made a difference in the kind of guess we would make.


yerkamanor /// 07:27am